There are so many questions and scenarios going on in my head lately. For a few months now my husband and I have been sitting on the fact that we have decided that when his enlistment is up in two years that we will get out of the military.
The thing is, is that not being military is almost something I can’t fathom. I’ve been with my husband from the very beginning of his career and I’ve watched him grow from a boy unsure of himself to a leader who has the ability to instill confidence in his men. So, thinking about a life without P.T. or recall formations is almost like a fantasy!
What will it be like?
What will it be like to not wake up to phone calls in the middle of the night to have my husband called away?
What will it be like to have him home for dinner at a decent hour?
What will it be like with no more deployments or last minute training schedules?
What will it be like to have my husband here for birthdays and anniversaries?
What will it be like for him to coach our son’s baseball team?
On the other hand though….
What will be like to go without the camaraderie that we’ve only felt and seen with being in the military?
How will I get to cook for ten or more guys as we open our house to them for a BBQ?
How will I be able to be a positive influence on my community as I am with the FRG?
How am I going to be able to purchase and divulge in Commissary cupcakes if I don’t have a military i.d.?
See my dilemma?
Despite all these questions gifting us an eerie sense of excitement and uncertainty, we are looking forward to settling down somewhere on a quiet piece of land and not knowing what the next day will bring.